studio 60 photographic art

I posted this link on my facebook page and reflecting upon the message, I had to make some comments…

For starters… everything that Don said is true. You take lots of sucky photos, but you take them because you like to, and want to… not because you need to.

I remember taking photos of my barbies with my moms camera. I remember taking LOADS of photos during school. During field trips. During vacations. Of friends. Of friends of friends. Of times in my life when I otherwise wouldn’t remember if I hadn’t taken a photo… Of my dog. Of my dog. Of my dog.My kids, the rickety fence post in the back yards. The trees. The flowers. My kids. The dog. The sunset. The sunrise. The water. The snow falling. Thunder storms. More kids. My family. My family being together. Random things that make up life…

…and FILM doesn’t lie. It shows you all the photos you took. It makes you stop. Think. Realize what you’re doing and what you’re photographing and ‘Hmmmmm, next time I need to do this.’

Then it happened.

I started photographing other peoples kids. Other peoples dogs. Other peoples flowers. Other people.

I never went through life imagining I wanted to be a photographer because I was always taking photos anyway… it was just a natural progression in gear, technique, vision and loads of trial and error.

If I didn’t make another dime at photography as an occupation, I would still take photographs of all the things I love; I would still be a photographer.

…one of the first digital images I took… My momma and Eldest a few months after my dad passed away… nearly 10 years ago.

Soooooo…. I feel like I’ve fallen off the face of the earth a little bit lately.

It’s amazing how the weather affects productivity, moods and the kids… ok – who am I kidding! My husband is chomping at the bit to get in the field since this Spring decided to be exceptionally late! This makes me anxious because he leaves in the crest of the year with things picking up in my business, kids in Spring sports, end of year recitals, end of year SCHOOL and just running, running, running. I don’t think it will slow down any time soon!… or at least for the next 3 years or so when all three girls are in school. Full Time. {and Faith will have her drivers license! DEAR GOD!}
I DIGRESS!!

I’ve been searching high and low for a studio space to move in to for the beginning of summer – or – right now would work, too; just so my kids can have their home to be their home and not bear the wrath of MOM-Zilla before clients come over and the house is a wreck err… I mean, LIVED in

I know what I want in my heart and getting there is a painfully slow process. I’m sure the Good Lord knows what I need better than I, however, being patient in His timing is turning me in to the crabby, whiny 2-year old.

Every night I pray for patience and guidance, and for the will to be a good mom and wife! Tall order. Acknowledging that I’m not perfect helps a bit.

I’ve managed to clear some major blocks in myself as well, which is extremely liberating, and also a wee bit on the humbling side as well. BELIEVE YOU ME, my snide, sarcastic attitude has been cut in half… and that’s a fairly large amount! Realizing that even 6-8 months ago I was a narcissistic idiot makes me feel like I need to get over my own ego and just open up a bit more. LOTS of baggage there, but oh well, I’m learning to let go of it.

One year ago I didn’t care if I had a business or not, and now I love it more than anything. I’ve completely rearranged my style, my strategies and my self worth and it’s made leaps and bounds of improvements… not only with my sanity, but also a better experience for my clients. Yep, kind of a huge deal

I will be so bold as to ask for your good vibes in regards to the studio that is right for me. I want nothing more than a healthy, wealthy business and a new home FOR it!

Don’t worry though, I’m still photographing! It’s just a little bit slower right now while the pieces are being put together.

OH THE JOYS!

Spring. Spring. Spring. Spring. Spring. Spring. Spring.
I have a feeling we’ll be jumping right in to Summer… but… I’m ok with that!
We don’t have tulips blooming yet because there is lots of snow, but I thought a bit ‘o color just felt good

We’re nearly ONE THIRD of the way through 2013! WOW!

Goals for 2013? What were yours? Mine included the following ::

SIMPLIFY.

ENJOY.

…just checking in on youkeep up the good work!

Eldest calls me ‘Mom’ – with a rare ‘Mommy’ thrown in…

And the Littlest Little calls ‘Momma’ or ‘Mommy’ or ‘Mom’…

My husband refers to me as ‘Ma’ which makes me have flashbacks of Little House on the Prairie. Weird. I do not refer to him as ‘Pa’ but ‘daddy’ to the girlsBut I digress…

I hope that I have a wonderful relationship with my girls throughout their entire lives… but know that it won’t always be roses and butterflies. Chaos. Messes. Crazy. Hormones. Bickering. Helping. Homework. Sports. Alphabets. Hugs. Babysitting. Estrogen… lots and lots of Estrogen!!

I was a DADDY’s girl through and through and my relationship with my own mother has ebbed and flowed throughout the years. Mostly – I’m sure – because of some of my not so brilliant ideas and decisions!

…but we’re different people entirely and I believe still growing. She held my hand during the birth of Eldest, rescued me when I truly was at rock bottom and has taught me a great work ethic that I try to instill in my girls always… led me to God even when I didn’t want to be there and is patient with me returning back to Him. The last portrait I have of myself and my mom is from our wedding… 6 years ago. Friggin terrible.

My beautiful Grandmother will be 91 this summer and I cherish the memories of her taking care of me when I was little… I call her ‘Gran’ and absolutely wish my girls were old enough to appreciate the beauty of their ‘Great Grand Mothers,’ to learn their stories and soak up their wisdom…

Right at this moment I want NOTHING more than a beautiful portrait of my mom, grandma, myself and my 3 girls. Is this something I have? Uhm. No. Shame on me.

I must say… All of my wonderful friends are excellent mothers – and to the one who doesn’t have human babies… her life is dedicated to the furry ones, so she’s special, too.These ladies and their mothers will always hold memories in my heart and I pray my girls have best girl friends to be silly and serious with, with mothers that love them as much as I do. I pray that they all have memories they can hang on to for years to come to remind them of their mommas!

What a community of women I am surrounded with… what memories this Mother’s Day will bring!

I CHALLENGE YOU ALL to make a commitment to your mothers and grandmothers to have a portrait taken. Message me if you need help getting it done